By starting this blog, I am building self esteem in myself! Taking one step at a time, one day at a time! Being a work in progress!
A work in progress!
Yes, I am a work in progress! I will get there one day, I’m sure of that, I’m just not sure how long it will take!
It doesn’t help that I have never had any kind of confidence in myself or my abilities! Never! Even when I was a child, or probably starting back then, I always compared myself to others. And that got reinforced some, growing up the only girl in a family of boys and being the middle child, too! If you are a middle child, you understand more than you might want to admit! Or maybe you were one of the lucky ones that it didn’t affect!
As a girl and middle child, I never lived up to what my parents thought I should do or be. My brother was my comparison at the time. I never did this as good, or that as good as him! So it became a struggle with me to be better and do better! It still wasn’t enough, or at least I felt that way! And there was nothing to convince me otherwise! I think I still have the need to prove myself to everyone…..even myself! The struggle is real, let me tell you!
It may sound like I want pitied, or that I feel sorry for myself! That isn’t true…..well, not entirely anyway! Yes, I do feel sorry for myself occasionally, but I DO NOT want to be pitied. I am including this just as a reference point.
Why am I sharing this, you ask?
I’m sharing this with you, because I know I’m not alone in my feelings! Depression rears it’s ugly head quite often, from lack of self esteem mostly. But also from falling in to a comparison trap more often than I should. There is no need to ever compare ourselves to others….EVER! We are our own unique individuals, and that’s a good thing!
See? Even in writing this, I keep trying to enforce these beliefs….and I do actually believe them, deep down! I just have to let them come to the surface more!
So, along came Direct Sales
Now why would I do that, when I can’t do anything I try? That has always been my belief, since that’s what I always heard! That doesn’t mean I actually CAN’T succeed, it just means I have to keep working on my mindset all the time! Not an easy thing to do, believe me, but I’m getting there!
My why is simple, but complex at the same time! Since I AM a work in progress, by selling to others, I am helping myself, while also helping others feel good about themselves. The complex part about it is, I struggle every single day with low self esteem! So I’m constantly battling an inner battle of anxiety and depression! Some days, no one would ever believe that! But it’s always there! Lingering in the back of my head! So I keep pushing ahead!
Believe it! Live it!
I do believe that what you think, you become! Think negative, you’ll be negative! Surround yourself with negativity, and you’ll become that way! And positive thoughts breed more positive thoughts! I strongly believe this, and try telling myself positive thoughts daily! That’s why I’m a work in progress! And one day, I will actually get there! Of that, I’m sure!
Come see for yourself!
Even my graphics are aimed as a reminder! I make these as inspiration for myself, and others as well! Do I always believe them and follow? Honestly, I do believe them when I create them, but it’s harder some days than others to actually follow them! Come check some of them out on Instagram and follow me while you’re there! Some are on Pinterest, too, won’t you follow me there, too? Or better yet, come see what direct sales are all about!
If you feel the same way, or need some positive inspiration now and then, read my “Positive Affirmations” post!
Remember, we are all in this together! And my motto? I can and I will! Watch me!